Ghazal 3, Verse 4

{3,4}

letaa huu;N maktab-e ;Gam-e dil me;N sabaq hanuuz
lekin yihii kih raft gayaa aur buud thaa

1) I take lessons in the school of grief of the heart, now/still

2a) but only/emphatically this: that 'went' is 'went' and 'was' is 'was'
2b) but only/emphatically this: that 'went' went and 'was' was

Notes:

hanuuz : 'Yet; still; further; just now, at present; hitherto, to this very time'. (Platts p.1239)

 

raft means 'went' in Persian, gayaa means 'went' in Urdu.

 

buud means 'was' in Persian, thaa means 'was' in Urdu.

Nazm:

That is, the time of enjoyment once was, and now has departed. (3)

== Nazm page 3

Bekhud Dihlavi:

The school of the grief of the heart is an entirely new and untouched metaphor.... There can't be any better words for portraying the ungovernability of passion. (11)

Bekhud Mohani:

That is, passion and mystic knowledge are a field of study of which there's no end. From the eternity before creation up to today the time has been spent in learning-- but it's still the first day. (6)

FWP:

SETS == HANUZ

ABOUT hanuuz : The two meanings of hanuuz effortlessly set two scenes for the verse. If the speaker now takes such lessons, which he did not take before (during the days of his youth and happier love?), it is not surprising that he's only at the beginning of my experience of the grief of the heart. While if he still takes these lessons, and yet remains such a novice, it shows how huge and unfathomable is the experience of loss.

Or perhaps he makes no progress because he himself is fixated on those two basic concepts and refuses to abandon them. Yet they may have abandoned him-- perhaps 'went' has departed and 'was' used to be. Although this (2b) reading is more radical, less obvious, grammatically it remains quite possible. On this eerily (and appropriately?) crazed reading, the speaker has lost not only joy, but even the vocabulary for expressing his memory of it. Joy is not at one remove from him, but at two removes.

Yet with all this, there's such an effect of simplicity, directness, sorrow! The combination of subtle construction and emotional resonance is Ghalib at his best; not even he can always pull it all together like this. It has a quality that's almost 'unattainably simple'.