jaatii hai ko))ii kashmakash andoh-e ((ishq
kii
dil bhii agar gayaa to vuhii dil kaa
dard thaa
1) as if the tug-of-war of the sorrow/anxiety/trouble of passion ever at all goes!
2a) if even/also the heart went, then there was that
very same pain in the heart
2b) if even/also the heart went, then that itself was a pain in the heart
ko))ii here has an idiomatic, intensive, negative use; GRAMMAR.
kashmakash : 'Repeated pulling; pulling backwards and forwards, or to and fro'. (Platts p.835)
Urdu text: Vajid 1902 {7}
He says, after passion arises, then it's not possible in any way that a man should be able to find salvation from it. That is, as long as the heart was in the body, so long did the sorrow of passion take on different moods and different aspects. When the heart was departing, the pain and grief of the heart's going remained in the body just the same. The meaning is that there was no way to save the life-- neither in the heart's presence, nor after its going. (19)
The pain of the grief of passion is not something that erases other griefs. We used to consider that after losing the heart, our spirit would be free of conflicts. But even now there's just the same pain, because the heart's going is itself a pain with no cure. (14)
SETS == EXCLAMATION
Of course, 'losing your heart' is just as painful as keeping it. Especially, no doubt, when the process involves a prolonged tug-of-war in which the heart constantly seeks to pull away and join the beloved. Does such pain ever depart? Of course not! More examples of this emphatic, negative use of ko))ii : {119,9}, {148,7}.
The pivotal word in the second line is vuhii , which anchors the two distinct ways in which the grammar of the second line can be arranged. Either vuhii is an adjective modifying dard (2a), or it is a noun referring to the heart's going (2b). (For an example of an equally pivotal yihii , see {20,1}.)
If we adopt (2a), then the result is a vision of something like the phantom pain in an amputated limb. Even if the heart goes, it still aches. If we adopt (2b), then even if the heart goes, its going is itself painful to the heart (or to the place in my chest where it still metaphorically is). The result is a kind of tug-of-war between keeping and losing, a process of seeking to root out grief while finding it ever more subtle and ineradicable. The same paradox of losing and finding the heart is expressed in several verses of {4}.
Nazm:
That is, it's not possible in any way for the sorrow of passion to become less. If the heart departed, even then grief of the heart would remain. (8)
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