Ghazal 46, Verse 6

{46,6}

((umr bhar dekhaa kiyaa marne kii raah
mar gaye par dekhiye dikhlaa))e;N kyaa

1) a whole lifetime we kept {waiting for / watching the road of} death

2a) upon dying, let's see what [they] would show
2b) we died, but let's see what [they] would show

Notes:

Ghalib:

[1855:] There's no breath I take that I'm not mindful of the last breath. I'm already sixty years old. Now how long will I live? The ghazal, the ode, the verse-set, the quatrain, Persian, Urdu-- I've composed ten thousand verses, now how long will I go on composing? I got through the good and bad of life as best I could. Now my thought is, let's see what death is like, and what happens after death: {46,6} [with dekhaa kiye]
==Urdu text: Khaliq Anjum vol. 3, p. 1167
==another trans: Russell and Islam p. 78

Ghalib:

[February 1857:] From the age of twelve years I have been blackening the paper with poetry and prose as if it were the record of my deeds. I've reached my sixty-second year-- fifty years have passed in the exercise of this pursuit. Now there's no strength or endurance in body or spirit. I've entirely given up writing Persian prose; in Urdu too I've renounced all ornamentation-- whatever comes to my tongue, emerges from my pen. My foot is in the stirrup and hand on the reins-- what would I write, and what would I do? I constantly recite this verse of mine: {46,6} [with dekhaa kiye].
==Urdu text: Khaliq Anjum vol. 4, p. 1415

Ghalib:

[1859:] Now, night and day, I'm wondering-- life has passed like this, now let's see how death will be: {46,6} [with dekhaa kiyaa]
==Urdu text: Khaliq Anjum vol. 2, p. 604

Ghalib:

[c.1859:] [See the mention along with {46,2}.] [with dekhaa kiye]

Ghalib:

[1861:] Neither can you take care of me, nor can I give you any help. God, God, God! I've swum the whole sea. The shore is near. With two more strokes, I'm across: {46,6} [with dekhaa kiyaa]
==Urdu text: Khaliq Anjum vol. 3, p. 996
==other trans.: Russell and Islam p. 264; Daud Rahbar p. 182

Ghalib:

[1867:] Seventy-one years of age, crippled in the legs, deaf in the ears. Day and night I lie prostrate, if I write two lines, my body trembles, the words don't come to me. My powers are failing, my senses disordered, my diet is limited or rather minimal: {46,6} [with dekhaa kiyaa]
==Urdu text: Khaliq Anjum vol. 4, p. 1442

Hali:

One day when Mirza was absorbed in chess, the late Munshi Ghulam Ali Khan recited this verse [of Zauq's] to somebody else:

ab to ghabraa ke yih kahte hai;N kih mar jaa))e;Nge
mar ke bhii chain nah paayaa to kidhar jaa))e;Nge

[now, in distress, we say this: that 'we will die'
if even/also having died, we wouldn't find peace, then where will we go?]

The late Khan used to say that the sound of this fell on Mirza's ear also. At once he abandoned his chess game and asked me, 'Brother, what did you recite?' I again recited that verse. He asked, 'Whose verse is it?' I said, 'Zauq's'. Hearing this, he was extremely surprised, and made me recite it again and again, and slapped his head. I too notice that Mirza, in his Urdu letters, has mentioned this verse repeatedly. Where he has praised an excellent verse, there he has certainly written down this verse.
==Urdu text: pp. 82-83 in Hali, Yadgar-e Ghalib

Hali:

The reference in 'would show' is to the Lord. He says that his whole life he has been waiting for death, since it will certainly be better than the state of life. Now let's see, after dying let's see what state He would show me that has kept me waiting for a lifetime. (143)

Nazm:

That is, his whole life he waited for death. When he dies, no telling what death will bring. (42)

== Nazm page 42

Vajid:

Urdu text: Vajid 1902 {46}

Bekhud Mohani:

In this verse the aspect of complaint against the Lord emerges, and it's clear what a bad life this life is, that a person would at every moment wait for death....

The True Beloved (the Lord) has promised to show Himself on Doomsday. The lover says, with this hope I have spent my whole life in passion and in waiting for death. Now let's see what happens after death, whether the longing for sight is fulfilled or not. (105)

FWP:

SETS == KYA

Shehryar Zafar points out that Arshi gives dekhaa kiyaa , but then in his footnotes Arshi shows that in letters Ghalib used both dekhaa kiyaa and dekhaa kiye about equally often. So I checked in Khaliq Anjum, with the same results (as can be seen above). Clearly Ghalib considered both forms grammatically correct and poetically appropriate for that point in that verse. That seems the most plausible reason why he himself couldn't seem to remember which form he had officially chosen.

More than any other verse, this one seems to have often come to Ghalib's mind in his later years, at least when he wrote to his friends. The six instances given above are more than could be provided for any other verse. Such quotations in letters are of biographical interest of course, and also illustrate the emotional context in which the verse seemed appropriate to him. I reproduce in this commentary every such reference that I've found, since the instances in which he actually analyzes his own verses are all too few.

This one is nicely turned out when it comes to wordplay. The expression 'X kii raah dekhnaa ' is a petrified phrase that means 'to wait for X', but its literal meaning is 'to watch X's road,' to watch for X to arrive. Here the 'watching' in the first line is echoed by the 'let's see' and the 'show' in the next line. The polite imperative dekhiye , literally 'please look', is colloquially used the way 'let's see' is in English. And dikhlaanaa , 'to show', literally means 'to cause to see', and is of course derived from dekhnaa , 'to see'. (In Urdu, 'to see', 'to look', and 'to watch' are all expressed by dekhnaa .)

The eager spectator waited a lifetime to see what death would show him. Why? Because life in the world proved so unsatisfying in general? Because his particular life was so especially wretched and full of pain? Because death had a reputation as a master showman?

In the second line, mar gaye par can be read either as an archaic variant of mar jaane par , 'upon dying', or more literally as '[we] died, but'. The former seems to be spoken before death, the latter after death (for more verses in which the dead lover speaks, see {57,1}). The former is more neutral and hopeful; the 'but' in the latter suggests that what death has to show is very likely to be disappointing.

The most striking bit of grammar in the verse is the plural subjunctivedikhlaa))e;N , which requires an implied plural subject. Death seems to be irrevocably singular. So who are the 'they' who would be doing the showing? One might of course argue that the plural ending was required by the rhyme, so that the poet was simply-- and slackly-- yielding to necessity. But Ghalib is too tricky a poet to be lightly constrained. I would argue that it's the same 'they' who appear in the expression 'they say' (in both English and Urdu)-- a wryly observed, vague group defined both by being elusively powerful, and by being not me/us. It could theoretically of course be a respectful reference to God, but it certainly doesn't come across that way; God is in any case almost always addressed more intimately.

Then, of course, the final jewel is the artistic use of the multifaceted kyaa ; for more on this see {15,10}. All these readings of dekhiye dikhlaa))e;N kyaa are possible:

=let's see what they would show (as translated above)
=let's see-- what would they show?
=let's see-- would they show, or not?
=let's see-- as if they would show!

Ghalib cited this verse in melancholy contexts, including laments about the decline of his powers as a poet. But surely he was also reminding his addressees of what he as a poet had already so richly achieved-- could anything from the next world compare with what he had seen, and shown, already?