kyuu;N jal gayaa nah taab-e ru;x-e
yaar dekh kar
jaltaa huu;N apnii :taaqat-e diidaar dekh kar
1) why did I not burn [to ashes], having seen the
radiance of the beloved's face?
1) why did I not burn [to ashes], having seen [my] endurance of the [sight
of the] beloved's face?
2) I burn [with jealousy/pain], having seen my own strength of sight/vision
jalnaa : 'To burn; to be burnt; to be on fire; to be kindled, be lighted; to be scorched, be singed; to be inflamed, to be consumed; to be touched, moved, or affected (with pity, &c.); to feel pain, sorrow, anguish, &c.; to burn or be consumed with love, or jealousy, or envy, &c'. (Platts p.387)
taab : 'Heat, warmth; burning, inflaming; pain, affliction, grief; anger, indignation, wrath, rage; light, radiance, lustre, splendour; strength, power, ability, capability; endurance'. (Platts p.303)
He's expressed the perfection of jealousy with such excellence that it's impossible to praise it sufficiently. He says, seeing the radiance of the beloved's face, I ought to have burned up-- why didn't I burn up? Now the result has emerged that seeing my own strength of sight, I burn [with jealousy]. That is, jealousy has lit a fire within my heart. (103)
The use of 'burn' in the two lines is entirely different; this pleasure of language is especially worthy of note. (139)
Ghalib originally composed a ghazal of twelve verses (Raza p. 277); he chose to include all twelve (Hamid p. 49) in his published divan. More on this topic: S. R. Faruqi's choices.
Here's a verse where wordplay is hard to distinguish from meaning-play. For the whole pleasure of it hinges on the various meanings of jalnaa and taab . The literal meaning of jalnaa is of course 'to burn', but its range of extended, semi-metaphorical associations include suffering, pain, and jealousy. Similarly, taab (a Persian cognate to the Sanskrit taap , as in tapasya ) has the root meaning of 'heat', from which its associations of wrath, radiance, and endurance are all semi-metaphorically derived.
In line one, the sight of the taab , radiance, of the beloved's face ought to consume me in flame (1a); or, my own taab , endurance, of the sight of the beloved's face ought to consume me in flames of jealousy/wrath at my toughness and presumption (1b). In line two, in either case I burn with jealousy and rage against my own 'strengh of sight', which has caused me to behave not with the glorious self-abandon of the moth flying into the candle-flame, but with an entirely discreditable, un-lover-like enduringness (see {1,2} for the related concepted of sa;xt-jaanii , 'tough-lifedness'). In short, it is my failure to jalnaa that causes me to jalnaa ; the problem is my taab of the beloved's taab . (For another verse based on taab wordplay, see {204,8}.)
Nazm rightly points to {153,1} as an excellent example of the same theme-- at the thought of his being able to see the beloved, the lover exclaims that he is 'jealous of himself'.
Nazm:
The way lightning is the limit case [of light intolerable to the eyes], in the same way the author has expressed the limit case of jealousy: I myself burn at my own strength of vision. The same meaning he has expressed very clearly in a later verse: {153,1}. (55-56)
== Nazm page 55; Nazm page 56