Ghazal 167, Verse 3

{167,3}

hastii hamaarii apnii fanaa par daliil hai
yaa;N tak mi;Te kih aap ham apnii qasam hu))e

1) our existence is the proof/evidence of its/our own death/destruction
2) we became erased to such an extent that we became our own oath

Notes:

fanaa : 'Mortality, frailty, corruption, decay, perdition, destruction, death'. (Platts p.784)

 

daliil : 'Indication, evidence, argument, proof, demonstration; a director, guide, indicator, discoverer'. (Platts p.525)

Ghalib:

[1863:] First understand what a qasam is. How tall is its stature? What are its hands and feet like? What kind of complexion does it have? When you can't tell this, you'll realize that qasam is not a body or an embodied thing. It is only hypothetical. Its presence is only in the mind. Its existence is like that of the [mythical bird] Simurgh. That is, it can only be named, not seen. Thus the poet says that when I became my own qasam , then it's as if in that situation my being is the proof of my non-being. (Arshi 296)
==Urdu text: Khaliq Anjum vol. 2, p. 542

Nazm:

The idiom is, 'we don't have such-and-such a thing even to swear by' [hamaare paas falaan shai qasam khaane ko bhii nahii;N], or 'not even the name' [naam ko bhii nahii;N].... And it's clear that this kind of existence that would be 'to swear by', or 'strictly nominal', is a proof of oblivion and nothingness. And there's also the idiom, 'we swear off such-and-such a thing' [hame;N falaan shai kii qasam hai]; that is, 'we have no relationship with it'. (180)

== Nazm page 180

Bekhud Mohani:

Our existence is proof of our nonexistence because our existence is like the case in which something 'would be only enough to swear by' [ko))ii chiiz qasam khaane bhar kii ho]. That is, our existence is nominal [baraa-e naam]. (325)

FWP:

SETS == IDIOMS; MUSHAIRAH
LIFE/DEATH: {7,2}
VOWS: {20,2}

Ghalib is always happy to launch himself into the zigzags of a good paradox, and in the first line he does so with a vengeance. We can only wait-- knowing that under mushairah performance conditions, the wait will be as long as possible-- and speculate, and hope for enlightenment in the second line. But in proper mushairah-verse style, the second line too remains completely opaque, until the last possible moment, in the rhyme-word itself, when qasam finally pulls the whole verse together, and reminds us with a sudden burst of amusement of the idiom, and makes us laugh and say vaah vaah .

This one reminds me also of the question of whether the beloved's waist exists or not, in {100,3}, and the claim that a scar is a 'token' of a liver {138,7}. He's also played specifically with the idiomatic pleasures of qasam : for some examples, see {89,3}.

Note for grammar fans: Strictly speaking, we should read apnii fanaa as 'its own death' (that of the 'existence'); but of course the possessive bleeds over semantically to convey the idea of 'our own death'. For more on this relatively free usage, see {15,12}.