yaad hai shaadii me;N bhii hangaamah-e yaa
rab mujhe
sub;hah-e zaahid hu))aa hai ;xandah zer-e lab mujhe
1) even/also in joy I remember the clamor/tumult of
'oh Lord!'
2a) a { slight / soft / 'under the lip'} laugh/smile has become the prayer-bead
necklace of the Ascetic
to me
2b) the prayer-bead necklace of the Ascetic
has become a { slight / soft / 'under the lip'} laugh/smile to me
hangaamah : 'A convention, an assembly, a meeting; a crowd; --noise, tumult, commotion, confusion, uproar; sedition, disturbance, disorder; an affray; assault'. (Platts p.1238)
;xandah : 'Laughing, smiling; a laugh; laughter;--a laughing-stock'. (Platts p.494)
zer-e lab : 'Under the lip, slightly uttered, inarticulate, mumbled; in an under-tone, in a whisper, softly; inarticulately'. (Platts p.620)
He says, even in joy I remember the clamor of yaa rab . Even my smile is as if it's the Ascetic's hidden zikr. The meaning is that in no state do I remain heedless of remembering God. (285)
The word bhii is full of meaning. That is, I used always to lament anyway; nowadays some additional distresses have come upon me, the deep impression of which is still on the heart. Even in a state of happiness, when the image of those distresses appears before me, as it often does, with that thought I writhe and begin to call on the Lord. So when this is my state in the clamor/tumult of joy, it can be guessed what kind of difficulties and troubles those must be, and what state my heart must be in. (402)
SETS == A,B}
SMILE/LAUGHTER: {27,4}
Here's a classic 'A,B' verse, with two readings of the striking second verse, each of which works elegantly, though of course differently, with the first line. The curving necklace of prayer-beads (I'm avoiding the specifically Catholic term 'rosary') can readily be analogized to a smile. Here are two readings of that smile:
=(2a) a small, secret smile has become the Ascetic's prayer-necklace to me because what he does with his prayer-necklace, I do with my private zikr-embodying smile
=(2b) the Ascetic's prayer-necklace has become a small, secret smile to me because the thought of the ostentatious outward piety of the Ascetic, who makes a great show of using his prayer-beads, amuses me-- unlike him, I can and do remember the Lord even in seemingly distracting or discordant circumstances
The grammar of the verse also makes it possible that I'm envisioning the Ascetic's prayer-beads as forming the curve of a small, superior, reproachful smile directed at me-- even in the midst of pleasure I can sense his condemnation. But this meaning isn't as complex and Ghalibia-feeling as the others.
Nazm:
The meaning of yaa rab in Persian idiom is that of a cry to the Lord for help, and by the prayer-beads of the Ascetic is meant the hidden zikr that is done very softly on the lips. He says that even in joy I haven't forgotten the clamor of yaa rab ; my hidden smile is as if it's the prayer-bead necklace of the Ascetic. (228)