29. DOMESTIC SATYAGRAHA
My first experience of
jail life was in 1908. I saw that some of the regulations that the prisoners
had to observe were such as should voluntarily be observed by a brahmachari,
that is, one desiring to practise self-restraint. Such, for instance, was
the regulation requiring the last meal to be finished before sunset. Neither
the Indian nor the African prisoners were allowed tea or coffee. They could
add salt to the cooked food if they wished, but they might not have anything
for the mere satisfaction of the palate. When I asked the jail medical
officer to give us curry powder, and to let us add salt to the food whilst
it was cooking, he said: 'You are not here for satisfying your palate.
From the point of view of health, curry powder is not necessary, and it
makes no difference whether you add salt during or after cooking.'
Ultimately these restrictions
were modified, though not without much difficulty, but both were wholesome
rules of self-restraint. Inhibitions imposed from without rarely succeed,
but when they are self-imposed, they have a decidedly salutary effect.
So immediately after release from jail, I imposed on myself the two rules.
As far as was then possible, I stopped taking tea, and finished my last
meal before sunset. Both these now require no effort in the observance.
There came, however an occasion
which compelled me to give up salt altogether, and this restriction I continued
for an unbroken period of ten years. I had read in some books on vegetarianism
that salt was not a necessary article of diet for man, that on the contrary
saltless diet was better for the health. I had deduced that a brahmachari
benefited by a saltless diet. I had read and realized that the weak-bodied
should avoid pulses. I was very fond of them.
Now it happened that Kasturbai,
who had a brief respite after her operation, had again begun getting haemorrhage,
and the malady seemed to be obstinate. Hydropathic treatment by itself
did not answer. She had not much faith in my remedies, though she did not
resist them. She certainly did not ask for outside help. So when all my
remedies had failed, I entreated her to give up salt and pulses. She would
not agree, however much I pleaded with her, supporting myself with authorities.
At last she challenged me, saying that even I could not give up these articles
if I was advised to do so. I was pained and equally delighted--delighted
in that I got an opportunity to shower my love on her. I said to her: 'You
are mistaken. If I was ailing and the doctor advised to give up these or
any other articles, I should unhesitatingly do so. But there! Without any
medical advice, I give up salt and pulses for one year, whether you do
so or not.'
She was rudely shocked, and
exclaimed in deep sorrow: "Pray forgive me. Knowing you, I should not have
provoked you. I promise to abstain from these things, but for heaven's
sake take back your vow. This is too hard on me.'
'It is very good for you to
forego these articles. I have not the slightest doubt that you will be
all the better without them. As for me, I cannot retract a vow seriously
taken. And it is sure to benefit me, for all restraint, whatever prompts
it, is wholesome for men. You will therefore leave me alone. It will be
a test for me, and a moral support to you in carrying out your resolve.'
So she gave me up. 'You are
too obstinate. You will listen to none,' she said, and sought relief in
I would like to count this incident
as an instance of Satyagraha, and it is one of the sweetest recollections
of my life.
After this Kasturbai began to
pick up quickly--whether as a result of the saltless and pulseless diet,
or of the other consequent changes in her food; whether as a result of
my strict vigilance in exacting observance of the other rules of life,
or as an effect of the mental exhilaration produced by the incident, and
if so to what extent, I cannot say. But she rallied quickly, haemorrhage
completely stopped, and I added somewhat to my reputation as a quack.
As for me, I was all the better
for the new denials. I never craved for the things I had left, the year
sped away, and I found the senses to be more subdued than ever. The experiment
stimulated the inclination for self-restraint, and I continued the abstention
from the articles until long after I returned to India. Only once I happened
to take both the articles whilst I was in London in 1914. But of that occasion,
and as to how I resumed both, I shall speak in a later chapter.
I have tried the experiment
of a saltless and pulseless diet on many of my co-workers, and with good
results in South Africa. Medically there may be two opinions as to the
value of this the diet, but morally I have no doubt that all self-denial
is good for the soul. The diet of a man of self-restraint must be different
from that of a man of pleasure, just as their ways of life must be different.
Aspirants after brahmacharya often defeat their own end by adopting
courses suited to a life of pleasure.