Ghazal 36, Verse 3

{36,3}*

tuu mujhe bhuul gayaa ho to pataa batlaa duu;N
kabhii fitraak me;N tere ko))ii na;xchiir bhii thaa

1) if you might have forgotten me, then might/should I tell you the address?
2) at one time in your saddle-straps there was even/also some prey/game

Notes:

pataa : 'Sign, mark, signal, symptom, token, trace, clue, hint, direction, specification, particular mention; address (of a person), address (or place to which one is directed)'. (Platts p.223)

 

fitraak : 'Saddle-straps; cords fixed to a saddle for hanging game to'. (Platts p.776)

 

na;xchiir : 'A wild animal, wild beast; prey, game'. (Platts p.1126)

Nazm:

I am that very one [i.e., the prey]. (36)

== Nazm page 36

Bekhud Dihlavi:

He says, I am the same prey who had at one time been tied to your horse's saddle straps, and whom you considered to be unworthy, so that you loosened the straps and threw him away. Perhaps you've forgotten me. But to this very day I still consider myself your prey alone. (70)

Bekhud Mohani:

The poet has expressed his meaning in strangely heart-attracting words.... That is, I was such a lover of yours, whom you used to treat affectionately, and respect for whose love was in your heart. (Beauty of expression sacrifices itself for this style of expression.) (35-36)

FWP:

SETS

What a note of pathos the speaker seems to strike here! And yet with further study, the matter-of-factness shows itself underneath. The first line is wonderfully colloquial, it might be said by anyone-- anyone politely preparing to refresh a casual acquaintance's memory of a long-ago social encounter. It is courteous, after all, to act as though the person might have forgotten you, in order to emphasize your own humility and your listener's greater importance. But once you provide your address, you expect a friendly or at least properly polite reception.

So what does the lover provide by way of add ress? Not a current place of residence or business affiliation. Not even a past one. Only a very delicate and tentative reminder that there was once 'some' prey tied to the addressee's saddle. Only implication says that he himself was the prey.

And the further suggestion is of course that he has nothing else to mention about himself-- no home, no work, no identity, nothing current to make clear who he is. He has only that identity of having been once strapped to her saddle. Which means that, in an important sense, he's there still.

Could it be that she just hasn't bothered to notice her hunting-bag lately? This subtle, courteous, low-key, indirect verse, with its depths of suggestion, captures the poor ignored lover's whole plight.