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Well, it was not an easy lesson to learn. I may say that I learned a great many things that year about the nature of life, about the nature of the spiritual life, of man's relation to God, and God's relation to man, which I probably would not have learned so completely without this difficult experience. I also learned to rely upon acting as though nothing had happened, but I learned to criticize it, because I learned that relying upon that in the cool, stern way that I had always relied upon it, of course, made an area of coldness which was bound to alienate some warmer and more spontaneous, more southern personalities and temperaments who would be repelled by my cool acting as though nothing had happened, whereas I might have made a thing or two by weeping on their shoulder in the Congress. But, of course, if I had wept, not only on someone's shoulder, but if I had went at all, or if I'd let myself down at all, I would have disintegrated. That's the kind of person which we New Englanders are. We disintegrate if we do those things. All the quality in us of integrity and ability to keep our heads clear and make decisions and take actions which are uninfluenced by our personal suffering, or the personal effect on